Humility

I went offshore.. for work, yes. But also to run away from the troubles at work. I was beginning to wonder how it came to all this. Even now, out in the middle of the sea, the prospect of the troubles waiting for me back on land seems daunting.

This is not how it should be. Not for me. I who have always thrived under pressure. Always enjoyed the stressful fast-paced operations. Yet now, this. Makes you wonder what exactly could be the heart of the problem. And being offshore gives you plenty of time to think.

I have discovered that what hurts me most is my injured pride. The thought of people picking your work apart and zooming into all its faults and weaknesses. For someone who takes so much pride in her work, one cannot help but become defensive. Although knowing that all this is for the better. That the best thing to do would be to graciously accept it and learn from it. But humility is a hard lesson to learn. Just as credibility is so difficult to earn. Especially when you're so young and inexperienced.

How true it seems now. How the young are so stubborn and proud...

Wistful Thinking

"Somewhere out there beneath the pale moonlight
Someone's thinking of me and loving me tonight.."

It's amazing what one's mind is capable of when left to its own devices. Time and again, it keeps wandering back to that lone subject of your dreams. All else seem to pale in comparison. Nothing so important.. so engaging as fond thoughts of that special one.

Truth & Ideals

Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them.

Sadly such a thing is not true as everyone has their faults. Yet there is wisdom to those words. For all we need is for just one person to think us special. To think us the most wonderful person that graced their world. Irrespective of what the truth may actually be.

For you should idealize the one you love. Forget the flaws. The imperfections. Focus on their strengths and worth. Make them feel as though they are the most amazing person in your eyes. As they should already be. Your special one. Your perfect one. The most precious thing you ever held in your heart.

Funny isn’t it? How just one person’s opinion can matter so much. Can send you soaring to the moon. Or tug at your heart. For even if you are just a simple girl, believing you might mean the world to someone can mean so much…